It seems like there just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything done. Ever feel that way? It's been the story of my life for the last two years. It feels like I've been living crisis to crisis, and I hate it. I just get one thing resolved, and something else crops up to fill the void. *sigh*
That said, I am working on the sequel to my BATB fanfic "Save You, Save Me". I only have the first two chapters written so far, but I've edited the crap out of them, lol. When I don't have time (or peace and quiet!) to actually get into "writing mode", I take what little time I do have and go over what I've written, trying to make corrections, etc. Hopefully it will pay off!
Thanks to all who have read the first "book" and given feedback. I hope you'll continue the journey with me once I get it ready to post.
B
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Beauty and the Beast 10 Commandments*
1. Thou shalt have no other shows before BATB.
2. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image of Oliver Queen, for thy Vincent is a Jealous Beast.
3. Thou shalt not utter the name of thy Beast aloud in public places. (For Muirfield, Evan, and Joe will not hold him guiltless who associateth with Thy Beast.)
4. Remember thy Thursdays, to keep them free from distraction. (For the CW hath blessed it and made it AMAZING.)
5. Honor thy Beauty AND thy Beast - in secret, of course, that your days may be long upon the land.
6. Thou shalt not kill THY BEAST. (Muirfield, this means YOU.)
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery (no climbing in bed to watch a show on an opposing network Thursdays at 9pm).
8. Thou shalt not steal... unless thou art Vincent and Catherine, in which case stolen moments/kisses are OK (and even encouraged!).
9. Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor TVD, its ratings, or its fandom. (Other networks' shows, however, are fair game.)
10. Thou shalt not covet anything that is thy neighbor's (unless he has a full home theater upon which thou mayest watch Beauty and the Beast - in which case, no restrictions apply.)
*Inspiration credit goes to @Ashely_Irene101 on Twitter.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Save You, Save Me (BATB fic)
I do not own the premise of this Beauty and the Beast or any other (currently). This is simply my muse whispering in my ear, "What if...?" The story picks up toward the end of episode 1.09 as Catherine speeds off to find Vincent. I change nothing that the CW has done so far but merely embellish and move forward. Hope you enjoy.
PLEASE if you read this, leave a comment. Even if you don't like it (I only ask that you be civil). I want honest evaluation of my writing.
Chapter One - Exposed
Come on Vincent, answer!
Catherine’s desperate, unspoken demand silently willed him to pick up the phone and talk to her. She had to see him, to connect with him… to
make amends for her behavior at the wedding reception. Vincent’s voicemail kicked in, and she
punched the disconnect button in frustration, then immediately redialed. He couldn't ignore her calls all night… could
he? Pain stabbed through her heart at
the thought he might do just that. She
glanced up at the rear-view mirror, only half noticing the reckless swerving of
the car behind her. If she hadn't been
so distracted she might have realized what was about to happen before it was
too late…
Vincent stared at the display on his phone, his heart torn. More than anything he wanted to talk to
Catherine, but after what happened earlier, he wasn't sure that was wise. He had already let his guard down with her
once, foolishly thinking that they could have some sort of relationship. He should have known better. He was a cursed man-beast who didn't deserve
to be loved, especially by someone like Catherine. He
could still feel her words twisting in his gut as she told him he was becoming
more “animal”. And when he said he
needed to leave, he had secretly wanted for her to beg him to stay, to weather
the storm in her arms, but her response was to basically tell him that loving
him was too big a risk. He supposed he
couldn’t blame her, but it still hurt like hell.
If he was in his right mind, he would admit to himself that the very
things about her that made him want her were the very things that he would
eventually destroy – her goodness, her honesty – things that already were
suffering as she lied over and over to the people she loved and respected on a
daily basis, just to keep him safe. Not to mention protecting him from murder
charges…
His heart sank as he watched the call roll over to voicemail and
disappear for the second time. No matter
how much he knew in his head that he needed to let her go, to let her have a
real life, his heart insisted on clinging to the irrational hope that maybe…
somehow… someday… things would work out between them, if only he had faith.
As his phone began ringing for the third time in as many minutes, he couldn't help himself and he pushed the talk button to answer it. But what he heard was the last thing he
expected. He stood frozen as the sound
of shattering glass and crunching metal assaulted his ears – just before he heard Catherine scream and a
lot of crashing that sounded like a car rolling right before the line went
dead. “Cat-?” he choked out, but there
was no response except silence. “Catherine!”
he screamed into the night, then turned and ran. He retraced the path back
toward the reception, knowing it was the same route that Catherine would travel
to return to the city. He ran faster
than he ever had in his life, needing to find her, to make sure that she was
alright. She had to be alright. His life wouldn't be worth living if anything ever happened to her. He had almost reached the highway when he
heard the shots…
Please God, Catherine
pleaded, as white-hot pain seared through her shoulder. Please
don’t let me die here, now, like this.
Not before I get a chance to tell Vincent- Her thoughts began fading into darkness as
her brain purposed to shut down her consciousness in an attempt to dampen the
pain. As if from a great distance she
heard someone calling her name… Vincent… She tried to answer; tried to call out to
him, but nothing worked. It was like she
was trapped inside her body, screaming at the top of her lungs to a world that couldn't hear her. There was a sound of
wrenching metal that might have been right next to her, or a mile away. In her half-conscious haze she couldn't be
sure. But the one thing she was sure of was that with utmost care,
her beast was lifting her out of the twisted metal prison and cradling her
close to his heart, nuzzling her with his cheek so tenderly that it would be
hard for anyone who witnessed it to ever think him to be a crude, unfeeling
creature. Her last fleeting thought was
how she wished she could touch his cheek and tell him how much she loved him. Then, knowing that she was safe in Vincent’s
arms, Catherine finally let go and slipped into a dark cocoon of oblivion.
“Is that my car?!” Evan noted
the edge of terror in Heather’s question.
He couldn't blame her. He was
feeling pretty terrified at the moment himself.
The wreck he was looking at in front of him didn't bode well for the driver. And that was indeed her car… “Cat!”
Heather’s cry hit his ears at the same moment he saw an imposing figure
walk into the path of the headlights, carrying the limp form of a woman. There was no doubt as to who she was. But who was the man? The way he held her – rocked her - seemed
almost as if he was someone who… cherished her.
But something else about him made the hair rise on the back of Evan’s
neck. Somewhere in his subconscious,
pieces were starting to fall into place, even if fear was keeping his mind from
processing the evidence it was logging.
But instinct was strong, and as he jumped from the car he commanded Heather
to stay put. There was just something
about the silhouette of this stranger… the way he moved… Evan proceeded with caution, not quite sure
what to expect.
Nearing the scene, he could hear ragged breathing. Deep, hoarse breaths that sounded almost… not human. Could it be…? The situation was getting more
complicated by the moment. He had no
idea what kind of reasoning capabilities a cross-species being possessed – oh
yes, he knew in his gut that’s who he was dealing with – so he moved slowly,
never taking his eyes from the beast. As he drew closer he called out calmly,
“It’s alright, I’m here to help.” His
biggest fear was not that the creature would harm Catherine – not with the
almost reverent way it cradled her so protectively. But he had to make sure it didn't bolt and
take Catherine away from the help she obviously needed.
Evan only advanced a couple more steps before the beast lifted his face
from where it had been nestled against Catherine’s, and looked squarely into
Evan’s face. It was a sight Evan would remember for the rest of his life, as he
stared at this deformed creature – half man, half… something else – who had
tears streaming down his cheeks and looked as if its whole world was about to
end. “Please…. Help…. Her….” Although
the gravelly voice could only be classified as inhuman, there was no denying
the tenderness and sense of helplessness encompassed in the desperate plea. Apparently the human DNA still allowed it a
degree of rational thought, to understand the gravity of the situation and
acknowledge that he was in no position or shape to be the one to help her.
It had reasoned out that her best hope was to get someone else to care
for her, even if it meant exposing himself to a stranger.
The creature’s head jerked up and it became agitated, eyes getting wild
with fear as it began to move restlessly.
What had spooked it, Evan wondered?
“Please… help…” the beast stammered again, starting to pace in little
circles, holding Catherine closer to him.
Evan knew that if he didn't calm it down, it was going to be a flight
risk, in spite wanting help for Catherine.
But before he could act or even think
about doing anything, the creature walked right up to him and demanded, “Take!”
It emphasized what it meant by holding Catherine’s body out for Evan to
hold. It was then that Evan heard the
first screams of the approaching emergency vehicles and understood what had
upset the beast. It didn't want to be
seen. It had already revealed itself to
Evan and couldn't take any more chances.
As the monster-man gently laid Catherine in Evan’s arms, Evan was
suddenly confronted with the dilemma about what he was going to do concerning
this creature that had risked exposing itself against its own sense of
self-preservation to save his friend and co-worker. He instinctively knew beyond the shadow of a
doubt that this was the secret Cat
had been keeping from them all for the last few months. He and Tess had engaged in more than one
conversation about how distant their friend had become and how she seemed to be
withdrawing into herself, often disappearing with the lamest excuses. Now he knew why. After all, this wasn't the kind of secret you
shared with even your best girlfriend.
But he also knew Cat, and if she felt that this man-beast was worth
protecting, he wouldn't go against her wishes, at least until he had a
chance to talk to her.
He looked down at her lying so limp and still in his arms. If
he got a chance to talk to her. He hoped
with all his heart that he would. When
he looked up again, the beast was gone.
But his gut told him the creature hadn't gone far.
Chapter Two – Primal Grief
Vincent’s beast remained hidden in the shadows of the forest along the
highway, watching as the paramedics tended to Catherine. His eyes never left her face, his heart
breaking inside his chest, fighting with every ounce of his humanity to keep
from roaring like the wounded beast that he was. Even if he had been in full human form he
would have struggled to maintain his silence.
For all the years he’d been on the run, all he’d seen – all he’d done that he’d regretted with every
fiber of his being - he’d never felt the kind of soul-searing pain he was
experiencing now. If she didn't make it…
His fists clenched. No. She had
to make it. It couldn't end like
this. He couldn't lose her now, never
having told her what she meant to him.
Not that he could stand losing her period, but to lose all opportunity
and hope of ever telling her how much he loved her? It was unthinkable. Vincent’s head was clearing just a little,
his beast receding ever so slightly to afford him some rational thought, which
was almost more painful for the mental anguish he had to deal with in addition
to the primal emotions that were raging through him.
God, he’d been such a fool to walk away from her earlier. Why had he let his stupid pride stand between
him and the woman he loved? His mind had been reeling from the shocking
revelation that not only had Evan been “studying” him – specifically his DNA –
but that apparently the humanity he still possessed was now in danger. Sure, Catherine had some sort of feelings for
him now… but what if things
progressed to where he lost more and more of what made him the man she cared
for? What if she eventually had to turn him in and have him locked up to keep
him from hurting himself, others, or – God forbid! – herself? He didn't want her pity, or to be a burden on
her. All he wanted was to be with her;
to grow old together, to spend a lifetime loving her, and be loved in return. He knew it was a pipe dream but it was one
he’d been nursing for the last 9 years as he watched her grow into the
beautiful, strong, confident woman she was today.
He watched as the ambulance pulled away from the scene, lights flashing
and sirens blaring. He was just about to
turn, when he saw Evan glance in his direction.
He knew that the other man couldn't see him, but it was an
acknowledgment that Catherine’s co-worker knew he was there, somewhere,
watching over her. He wondered how
someone he’d just met could have discerned so much in those few moments, but
there wasn’t any point wasting time trying to reason it out, especially when
his judgment was still clouded. He
watched as Heather, with her heart beating erratically and her breathing
ragged, walked into Evan’s embrace sobbing.
Evan held her and rocked her gently, although his eyes never stopped
scanning the woods for some sign of the beast he’d met. A part of Vincent was relieved at the
prospect that maybe Evan would turn his affection to Catherine’s sister. He didn't want to be in competition with
someone that now knew he existed. The
man could ruin everything. But it was a
chance Vincent had had to take in order to save Catherine. Even in his right mind he would have made the
same decision again a thousand times, because she was far more important to him
than his own life. Finally, he
disappeared deep into the woods, heading back to the one person that could help
him now – JT.
JT was busy beefing up the security system when he heard Vincent come
crashing into the warehouse. He lifted
his head and listened – normally Vincent was as stealthy as a hunting
lioness. Something must be wrong if he
was charging around like a wounded-
His thoughts were interrupted as Vincent came crashing through the door
into the loft. When JT caught sight of
his friend he froze, half from shock, half from fear. Vincent seemed to be stuck in some ‘tween
state, half man, half the beast, and he was looking pretty wild-eyed. Was this some sort of new fugue state
surfacing? His eyes never leaving the
beast, he began to fumble for the case that held his tranquilizer gun. He’d been tossed like a ragdoll into the
concrete wall once before, and he wasn't exactly eager to be tossed like a sack
of potatoes again. He would trust Vincent
with his life when Vincent was in his right mind. But like this? Who knew what could happen? Although…
He paused a moment to really look at the beast before him. Something was definitely different about this
manifestation. He wasn't raging,
throwing things and generally tearing up the place. He just stood there, staring at JT, looking….
wounded. “Ohmygod, Vincent are you
alright?” All thoughts of personal
safety fled JT’s mind as he rushed to his friend’s side.
For all JT’s bluster, Vincent was his weakness, and the depths of his
compassion for his best friend knew no bounds.
It’s what had spurred him to spend literally thousands of hours in the
past decade reading and studying and researching, desperately trying to find a way
to reverse the experiment that had ruined Vincent’s life. Sure, he had had to cut himself off socially
from the rest of civilization to keep this secret they shared. But Vincent was his friend and something
unspeakable had been done to him. What
kind of friend would he be, if he turned his back on a man that had lost so
much – endured so much? He never could have lived with himself. And in all honesty, it never even crossed his
mind.
He watched in horror as Vincent fell to his knees and gave a roar that
was so desolate it could only mean one thing.
JT dropped to the floor in front of him and grasped his friend’s
shoulders gently. “It’s Catherine, isn't it? Something happened to her?” JT hadn't really expected a verbal
response. He’d never been able to
converse with Vincent in this state before.
So he was startled when Vincent answered him in a deep, hoarse,
semi-human voice filled with despair.
“Accident… hospital…. WHY?!” A primal
sob erupted from him, and in a fit of helpless misery he slammed his fists on
the floor, shattering the boards and embedding splinters into his hands and
wrists. With another roar he yanked his
fists back up through the planks and stared at the spikes of wood sticking out
of them.
JT held out his hand toward Vincent.
“Here, let me help,” he commanded gently. Vincent was breathing heavily from the stress
of trying to keep himself somewhat together, but with some of his rage now
spent, he did as he was instructed and held out his hands to let JT remove the
fragments of wood from his thickened skin.
“Do you know what hospital they took her to?” he asked, as he yanked a
particularly nasty piece of splintered wood from the back of Vincent’s hand,
hoping to distract him from the pain. No
such luck. He paused, waiting very still
when his friend growled and winced.
“O-kay,” Vincent ground out, letting JT know it was safe to
continue. JT was still astonished at
this new aspect of the beast. Could
Vincent be somehow willing to keep the beast at bay, knowing how much was at
stake for Catherine?
“Don’t… know,” Vincent said all of a sudden, breaking into JT’s
clinical musings.
“Hu-what?” JT struggled to
connect the dots and figure out what Vincent was trying to say. He really needed to keep his mind in the
present and leave the analysis until after the crisis was over. “Oh – the hospital. Well then, as soon as we finish this little
chore I’ll just call around and locate which ER she was taken to. I doubt they’ll tell me much, but at least we’ll
know where to head off to.”
Vincent was overwhelmed by JT’s kindness. He knew his friend had grave misgivings about
his “relationship” with Detective Chandler, but none of that seemed to matter
just now. JT was being the supportive
friend, taking charge, and bearing some of the burden of the situation that was
like a crushing weight on Vincent’s chest.
He felt his heart rate start to slow and his breathing evened out a
little more. JT was unaware of the
changes because his attention was on getting the last of the splinters out of
Vincent’s hands. His speech was still
slightly stilted, though his voice sounding more like himself when he said
softly, “Thank you, JT.”
JT’s head snapped up and he assessed Vincent’s condition. He heaved a mental sigh of relief to see his
friend looking more like himself than he had just a few minutes ago. “Hey – no problem, man,” was all he
said. The one thing that Vincent didn't need from his friend was pity,
and well JT knew it. “All done,” he
announced, and then before things could get any sappier between them, he
vaulted to his feet and crossed the room to his desk, intent on calling the
local ER’s to find where Catherine had been taken.
Vincent sat and watched thoughtfully as JT took control of the
situation, his mind partially distracted from his agony. He realized for the
first time since this whole nightmare began that for all that had gone wrong in
his life, he did have things to be profoundly grateful for. And JT was near the top of the list… right
behind Catherine. He was humbled by the
thought of how many people there were in this world that weren’t as fortunate
as he was. What a jerk he’d been walking
away from his precious Catherine, hurting her and pushing away something a lot
of people would die to experience – pure, unconditional love. Yes, he was blessed. He just hoped that his epiphany wasn't too
late, and hadn't come at an unspeakable price.
His attention quickly returned to the situation at hand when he heard
JT conversing with someone about Catherine’s condition. He’d found her! Vincent’s heart began to race
again, this time from elation as he realized Catherine was still alive, and as
long as she was breathing, there was hope.
He wouldn't allow himself to consider any other possibilities. If it was within his power, he would will her
back to his side, and if given a second chance, he promised the universe right
then and there that he would never squander it away or take the future for
granted again. He scrambled to his feet and began pacing, anxious for JT to
hang up so he could know what the hospital’s side of the conversation was.
“Well, she’s at Sinai, and they’re prepping her for surgery,” JT
announced as he disconnected the call. “She’s pretty messed up from the crash,
but it’s the gunshot wound that has them worried?! Just what haven’t you told me here, Vincent?” JT was back to his normal, edgy self.
Vincent reached up and rubbed the back of his neck. “Yeah, about that… apparently the accident wasn't so… accidental. You know that
Sabrina Meyer woman that Cat was going to take down for murder? She rammed Catherine’s car and from the looks
of it, it flipped over at least a couple times – anyway, she didn't want to
take any chances that the injuries wouldn't kill Catherine, so she shot her.”
“Oh. My. God. Did she get
away? Wait… how do you know it was
Sabrina?”
In spite of the tragic situation, Vincent actually lifted one corner of
his mouth in a half-smirk. His Catherine
was an amazing woman, and he was so proud of what she’d done. “I know it was Sabrina because somehow – and
I have no idea where she got the
strength after seeing how wrecked that car was – Catherine managed to shoot the
matchmaker from hell, and she was just lying on the road when I got
there.” He suddenly sobered at another
disturbing thought. “You know, I was so
fixated on making sure Catherine was safe, I never even noticed what happened
to Sabrina. It’s an awful thing to say,
but I kind of hope she was already gone when the emergency crews got
there. I’d say she got what she
deserved.”
“Well, I can ask when we get to the hospital. You best get out of that suit and into some
comfortable traveling clothes. It’ll
make you less conspicuous.” For the
first time it registered with Vincent that he’d still been in his suit from the
wedding when Evan had found him holding an unconscious Catherine. He couldn't help wondering what kind of
conclusions Mr. Hotshot M.E. drew from that
scenario. He bolted up the stairs to
change, suppressing a smile at the thought.
Chapter Three – Busted!
Vincent paced nervously around the perimeter of the Mt. Sinai campus,
anxiously waiting for some word from JT about Catherine’s condition. Even though it had only been 15 minutes since
they arrived, it seemed like an eternity.
God, he didn’t even know if the bullet had gone clean through or was
lodged somewhere in her shoulder! Had it
hit an artery? He’d noticed quite a bit of blood on the sleeve of his suit coat
where his arm had supported Cat behind that injured shoulder. He wasn’t sure, but he didn’t think it was
enough to indicate a serious bleeder. Now,
in full possession of his rational senses, he realized how dangerous it had
been to pluck her out of the car instead of keeping her still. But his beast knew no reason when it came to
her. The only way he knew to protect her
was to be a barrier between Catherine and anyone trying to harm her. Dr. Vincent Keller, though, knew that
sometimes the best way to help someone was with your brain, not your
brawn. He sighed. All he could do was hope and pray that he
hadn’t done more damage than good
when he had moved her.
His cell ringing snapped him out of his dark thoughts. “Yeah, what did you find out?” he asked
without preamble.
“She’s still in surgery, obviously, and we won’t know anything definite
for at least another hour. But
apparently the bullet did exit without doing extensive damage so that’s something
to be thankful for. They weren’t sure
about internal injuries from the crash though.
Hopefully surgery will be in and out and they won’t find any more
problems to deal with.”
Vincent knew that JT couldn’t see his nod of agreement, but he was too
choked up to speak at the moment, thinking as he was about the endless
possibilities of the types of injuries Catherine could have sustained that the
naked eye couldn’t detect. And he hadn’t
had a chance to look her over with a clinical eye and a clear head before he’d
handed her off to Evan. “Keep me
posted,” he finally managed to say on a strangled growl of frustration. How he wanted to be with her! He wanted to make sure that she got the
absolute best care and even then he wanted to be able to oversee her treatment
to make sure nobody screwed up. Not that
the staff at Mt. Sinai were incompetent, it was just that he had a vested
interest in making sure no oversights occurred.
But for now, all he could do was resume his relentless pacing of the
blocks surrounding the place where the woman he loved more than his own life
fought for hers. And try to keep as calm
as possible.
JT slipped the phone into his pocket and walked back to the ER to wait
for news. As he entered the waiting room
he quickly realized his mistake.
“YOU!” JT’s head snapped up and
looked in the direction of the voice only to see Catherine’s partner and M.E.
friend barreling down on him. He
suddenly felt caged, and turned to hastily retreat through the doors he had just
entered. It was no use though; Tess and
Evan were hot on his heels and he had barely cleared the building before they
grabbed him. “Stop right there,” Tess
commanded as she flashed her badge.
“NYPD. We have some questions for
you.”
Since escape was out of the question, JT opted to play dumb. He turned to face them with an “I’m clueless”
smile he had worked hard to perfect. “Questions? Me? Whatever about?”
“You know exactly what
about,” Evan growled menacingly. “First
you break into my lab and try to sabotage my work, and now you turn up here -
wait. Why are you here?”
“Huh? Oh, uh… I’m just checking
on… a friend. But I can come back later,
really.” JT tried to sidestep Evan, but
it was no use.
“I don’t think so. You’re up to
something and I want to know what it is.
Are you here because of Catherine? Is that it?” A fuzzy thought was starting to form in the
periphery of Evan’s mind and warning bells were telling him to tread carefully
with this conversation in front of Tess.
He still didn’t know the extent of Cat’s relationship with this
cross-species humanoid, and what her reasons were for lying to her closest
friends about it. Until he did, he
wasn’t going to betray her confidence that had been given to him without her
consent. Just as JT was about to open his
mouth to say something, Evan stopped him.
“Hold that thought…. Tess? Can you please go wait inside for news about
Catherine?”
“But-“
“Please, Tess, for me? There are
some… sensitive things I want to discuss with this… gentleman in private. Boring
research stuff, you know? And like you
said… it may not even be a chargeable offense.
I need to have some more information from him first, ok?”
“Al-right,” Tess responded with more than a little doubt and
hesitation. “But I’ll be right inside if
you need me. Cell is on.”
“Got it.” Evan watched as Tess
turned on her heel and walked back through the sliding doors into the ER. “Ok, now that we have some privacy, I want
the truth. No messing around trying to
lie to me, because I’m not the gullible type.
This is about Catherine and her… special friend, isn’t it?”
JT sighed, realizing that the damage was already done, thanks to
Vincent’s heroics, and there was no hope but to come clean and hope that his
friendship with Catherine would be enough to convince the good doctor to keep
his mouth shut about the whole incident.
“Yeah, yeah it is. I hear you uh…
‘met’ Vincent earlier…”
For all that Evan had pieced together, that surprised him the
most. Apparently that poor monster had
gone straight to the little vandal and somehow grunted and relayed in broken
language what had happened. Would
wonders never cease…
“Wait a minute. Did you just
call him Vincent?” Evan questioned. Where
had he heard that name recently…
“Uhh well…” JT realized he had just given Evan more information than
he’d already pieced together. Damn.
Evan’s eyes went wide as the proverbial light went on. “Is that… creature… Vincent Keller? Is that why forensic evidence
makes him appear to be a little too alive and well for a guy with a death
certificate?”
JT’s head dropped as he let out a loud sigh. Half of New York was going
to be in on their secret soon, the way things were going. “It’s really a long story, but to answer your
question, yes, he’s Vincent Keller.”
Evan nodded. “Well then, yes, I
met the former Dr. Keller at the accident scene. It was obvious he had nothing to do with what
happened and that he was only trying to help… this time.” Now that the
beast had a name, Evan was finding it impossible to continue thinking of him as
an “it.” “But that doesn’t explain the DNA samples we
have of him found at numerous other crime scenes all over New York. Including the night I was kidnapped.” Evan held up a hand to stop the flood of
verbiage threatening to spill from JT’s mouth.
“That said, I trust Catherine implicitly, and for some reason she has been protecting Keller for quite a while now I
suspect, and out of respect for her I will reserve final judgment until I have
a chance to talk with her and find out why.”
Crossing his arms over his chest he added, “So now… why don’t you tell me who
you are, and what you were doing in my lab, hmm?”
JT blew out the breath he’d been holding in. “OK… JT Forbes, biochem professor. In all
honesty, I was there using your DNA analyzer because I needed it to formulate a serum from
some notes we found in Vanessa Chandler’s research related to these… fugue states that her ‘super-soldiers’ were experiencing. Vincent had never exhibited any of the
symptoms while he was in the program, and had blocked most of his memories of
the experiments until recently. Anyway,
long story short, I needed the equipment to try and find a solution to
Vincent’s lapses into animal insanity.
So far it appears to be working, so…”
“JT! What the hell are you doing?!” Vincent growled from the
shadows. “Why don’t you just get a
producer and make a Lifetime movie about it?
Whatever happened to ‘tell no one’?!”
“What?!? YOU are lecturing ME
about exposure? After what you pulled
tonight? He already knows bits and
pieces and thinks he knows more than he does.
I’d say that makes him more dangerous than if he knew the whole truth at
this point!” JT was keeping his voice to
a hoarse whisper, but he was in full rant mode.
With Vincent’s super hearing he didn’t have to talk very loud to know
his friend could understand him, even though Evan could only make out half of
what he was saying.
“I know but you didn’t have to confirm what your involvement in this
mess is!”
“Hey, you opened Pandora’s
Box when you let Cat in on our secret.
This is just going to keep cascading out of control because you can’t stay away
from each other.”
Serum ingredients: $296.34.
Pilfered lab equipment usage:
$0.00. But the look on Evan Marks’
face at the moment he realized the disembodied voice in the bushes belonged to
Vincent Keller - speaking like a normal human?
Priceless. JT could almost envision the commercial
for it now. He dipped his head to look
at his shoes in a vain attempt to hide a smirk he couldn’t contain, despite it
being rather inappropriate under the circumstances. Nothing about this situation was remotely
amusing. Strange, how the mind reacts to
stress sometimes.
Evan looked first from JT to the shadowy figure standing by the bushes,
and back to JT with utter confusion.
Sure, this voice was deep and gravelly and Evan recognized some of the
timbre of the voice he’d heard come from the beast at the accident scene, yet
this was totally and unmistakably human.
Thinking he must be confused – that this couldn’t possibly be Vincent
Keller lurking in the darkness - he carefully edged his way into the shadows
off the sidewalk path. Just before Evan
got close enough to make out his features, Vincent leaned in suddenly and went,
“BOO!” Evan nearly jumped out of his
skin, and Vincent couldn’t help but laugh at the way his heart started racing.
Evan scowled as he looked at Vincent, making sure that was indeed who
stood facing him. No doubt about
it. “Very funny, Keller. I’d think given the fact that I could make
life very difficult for you, you’d be a little nicer to me.”
Vincent raised an eyebrow, crossing his arms over his chest in a parody
of Evan’s earlier gesture meant to intimidate JT. “Is that so?” he asked mockingly. He took a menacing step closer to Evan, who
stood frozen in place. Leaning in just a
bit so he was eye to eye with his adversary, he explained, “Well see, I’d say that given the fact I saw you
kiss the woman I’m in love with, I am being
nice. You know… relatively speaking.” GOD it
felt SO GOOD to admit that he loved Catherine out loud! Vincent had all he could do not to climb on a
roof and shout it to the whole world.
Chapter Four - Revelations
Evan tried to laugh but it came out somewhat strangled, what with his
heart lodged in his throat at the way Vincent was glaring at him. “Y-you’re in love with her are you? Does she
know this?” He felt triumphant when he
saw the smile disappear off Vincent’s face.
His victory was to be short lived, however.
“Yeah- er, well… she did… I
think. But I did something really stupid
tonight and I’m pretty sure she was coming to find me when the accident
happened. God, I was such a fool to
think I could walk away from her like that.” Vincent turned so he was no longer
hovering in Evan’s personal space, jamming his hands into his pockets in a
defeated gesture. Tears welled in his
eyes and he swallowed hard against the emotion that overwhelmed him. “If anything happens to her because I wasn’t
there to protect her…”
“Wait… tonight? But Catherine was at her father’s wedding and
reception. How could you-“ Evan’s brow furrowed as he got a flash of
insight and some more of the dots seemed to be connecting themselves. A memory of the beast holding Catherine
wearing a suit skittered across his consciousness. “She told you about my research, didn’t
she? That’s why she was grilling me for
information. You were there?”
“Yeah, I was. But when she told
me what you’d found, I kinda freaked.
Said some things I’m not proud of, and walked away from her because if
what you say is true, how could I ever ask her to go through that with me?
Although I’ll admit, I was kind of hoping she’d try to stop me, but… she
didn’t. I guess in the end it really was just too much to hope that this
thing between us would work out.”
“Wait a minute, back the bus up,” JT interrupted. “What research? Findings?
Vincent, what the hell are you not telling me?”
“Sorry, JT, there just hasn’t been time…”
“I’ve been studying Vincent’s DNA from old crime scenes where allegedly
he was trying to help victims.” Evan’s
voice held a note of skepticism, but he refrained from making any overt accusations,
even though there were several other people that it seemed Vincent had clearly
murdered along the way. He’d deal with
that later when he talked to Cat. If I get a chance to talk to her again…. He looked toward the ER entrance with
concern. He wished they could just know
if she was going to make it or not so he could stop worrying.
“Monster Headquarters to Evan,” JT’s voice broke through the haze Evan
had slipped into thinking about Catherine.
“So you’ve been studying
Vincent?” He rubbed his temples to try and stave off a raging headache. “Seriously, I’ll wait and freak out about that
later. What did you find?”
“It’s his uh… DNA… specifically the L2 capsid. It’s mutating. Basically, the animal nucleotides are taking
over for the human ones. He’s becoming
less… human.”
“Hey, standing right here,”
Vincent interrupted with a wave. “Stop
talking about me like I’m invisible. And
like I told Catherine, I feel fine. Never better.”
“Yes, well clearly there are things about you I don’t know or
understand,” Evan allowed. “Like, how it
is, you appear to be a perfectly normal male one minute, and a beast the next?
And how this even happened to you? JT
mentioned ‘super-soldiers’?”
Vincent briefly explained the whole Operation Muirfield thing and how
adrenaline triggered the change in him.
“Muirfield is the reason I pretended to be dead. They put out an order to exterminate all of
us. I’m the only one from the project that
has survived because of it. Up until a
few months ago, JT was the only other person who knew I’m alive. But Catherine found out, and Muirfield sent
assassins out after her, kidnapped her, and tried to get her to turn against me
and give me up. His head dropped in
shame as he thought of how faithful she had been to him, and how he’d failed to
give her the one thing she apparently needed – hope. He continued without looking up, but his
voice was softer and strained with emotion for the remorse that was gripping
him. “She never even entertained the
idea of turning me in, you know? She
kept insisting that I’m not a monster, even though they showed her pictures of
things I’d been involved in. She had
doubts about me, but she never gave up on me, even when I did. I turned myself in to protect her and JT, and
she stormed the place to get me back.”
He did lift his face then,
staring up into the night sky, and Evan could see a lone tear sliding
down his cheek as he added, “She is the
most… amazing woman I’ve ever known.”
“Yes, she is,” Evan agreed, “even more than I realized, apparently. It makes sense now why she has been keeping us
all at a distance lately, but I can’t believe she went through this alone. At any rate, I don’t want to see her
hurt. Surely you can understand that.”
“I would never hurt her!” Vincent insisted.
“Maybe not physically,” Evan allowed. “At least… not yet. But if we can’t do something to stabilize
your DNA and stop the mutation, eventually you’ll become too dangerous for her
to be around. But that’s not what really
worries me. I don’t want to see you
break her heart. Cat is… one of the kindest,
gentlest people I know, sometimes to a fault.
She wears this tough shell to keep everyone around her at bay, but there
have been rare moments where I’ve seen her vulnerable when she thought no one
was looking. So if she’s let her guard
down with you, it’s pretty serious, and you could hurt her badly without even realizing
it, because she’s gotten so good at hiding from everyone. For example, you said you wanted her to try
and stop you from leaving this evening… but did it ever occur to you that she
thought you were rejecting her? And that’s why she let you go? Because she
thought you really just wanted to get away from her?”
“No, I would never-!” Vincent
was devastated. Could Catherine really
have thought he wanted her out of his life? After all they had been
through? Once she had told him that it
never occurred to her that he didn’t know he was the best thing in her life…
but had he ever told her she was the best thing in his? Let her know how much he cared for her, even
if he hadn’t dared tell her how much he loved her? No.
He’d been just as guilty as she of assuming that they were on the same
page regarding their feelings. How could he have been so blind? Not to mention
selfish. He was so busy feeling sorry
for himself for this whole miserable situation that he hadn’t fully appreciated
the beautiful gift that Catherine had given him – herself. Her hopes, her dreams, and her acceptance…
she had put it all out there for him, and what had he done? Walked away and
left her standing there, all alone in it.
He sorted through his feelings in silence, and Evan waited patiently as
he did so. Finally Vincent spoke. “I
swear to you… I will talk to her and get this sorted out.”
“Well this is all touching,” JT stated, “but can we get back to
business? Marks, you said something
about ‘we’ when you mentioned stabilizing Vincent’s DNA. Does this mean you’re willing to help us?”
“Are you kidding? Do you really
think I would miss the chance of a lifetime for this kind of research
experience? Besides, I already got a huge grant for this project.” Evan grinned like a little kid who’d just
been given the keys to the candy shop.
“What are you… nuts? We can’t do this out in the open and then
just publish it. Vincent’s life is at stake here! Nothing has changed. No one can know he’s alive. Muirfield has already figured it out, but if
he gets named in some cross-species DNA study, everyone that works on the
project will be on the Muirfield hit list.
These people don’t play nice.”
“Well maybe there’s a way that we can research the principles that we’d need to formulate a cure for Vincent, without actually
naming him as a subject in the study.”
Evan grew thoughtful. “It’s too
bad we don’t have the original research from the project that created you. It might make things easier.” Something was niggling at the back of his
brain… something that JT said earlier… “Wait a minute. Did you say Vanessa Chandler’s notes helped you make that serum for Vincent?”
“Yes…” JT answered hesitantly.
“Are we talking, Vanessa Chandler as in Cat’s mother?”
“One and the same.”
“She was an infectious disease specialist. What was she doing with notes on cross-species
DNA?” Evan was feeling confused, and yet
he sensed some more pieces were starting to line up, about to fall into place.
It was Vincent who answered.
“Catherine’s mother worked for Muirfield. She’s the one that headed the project.”
“Oh my God,” Evan murmured. “So
then… her murder… it wasn’t random, was it?”
“Not in the least. She knew too
much, and she was interested in helping us, not having us all killed to clean
up their mess. I think she became too
big a liability, so they killed her to shut her up.”
“That means… the night that she died… you were there obviously. You
saved Cat’s life, didn’t you? That’s why
you killed those men. You were
protecting her.” Evan was beginning to
understand why the bond between Catherine and Vincent was so strong.
Vincent scuffed at the ground with his foot. “I wasn’t there in time to save Dr. Chandler,”
he confessed sadly. He lifted his head
and stared into Evan’s eyes with such intensity, Evan swore they were starting
to… glow. “But as long as I live, I will never regret killing those men. They were hired assassins, and if I hadn’t
killed them, Catherine would have died right then and there. She was just a kid practically, with her whole
life ahead of her. What would you have done?” Vincent threw the ball squarely into Evan’s
court and waited for a response, while he struggled to get his heart rate and
respiration back to normal. The moment
of truth had come – would Evan finally realize that Vincent didn’t like to
kill? That he did so only when innocent
lives were threatened?
“And if you hadn’t come into that tunnel when you did and killed Hollingsworth,
I would be dead.” Evan couldn’t condone vigilantism, obviously,
but it seemed that there was at least some moral justification for the situations
where Vincent crossed the line. “Tell
me… what about the FBI agents in the subway tunnel? That was obviously your… work. Why them?”
Vincent’s hands balled into fists as he remembered the horror of that
night. His jaw tensed, and his voice was
little more than a controlled growl. “Muirfield
assassins. They were trying to kill
Catherine. They had thrown her down onto
the tracks and were going to kill her and leave her for the train to destroy
the evidence.”
Evan recalled how they had found Catherine’s cell phone on the
tracks. Neither he nor Tess had gotten a
satisfactory explanation as to why she’d been on the F train platform that
evening. Until now. “The bastards.” Evan was starting to get angry now, too. They
had tried to kill Cat! And the one thing he hated more than a vigilante with a
moral compass was “The Company” killing innocent civilians and somehow thinking
they could operate “above the law”. He
had to agree with Vincent in spirit, if not in methodology, that these
criminals needed to be brought to justice.
Vincent started to relax marginally, seeing that Evan was beginning to
comprehend the stakes in this dangerous life he was being forced to live. “I don’t know what else to tell you, man,
except that I don’t like
killing. I was a doctor. It goes against everything I ever believed
in. But when it comes to kill or be
killed? Or worse – to have Catherine’s
life threatened? I won’t hesitate to
kill again. If that makes me some sort
of evil monster, so be it. But I think
self-defense is still justified under the law, isn’t it?”
Evan gave him a sad smile. “Yes,
it is. It’s just too bad you have to
repeatedly be put in that position. Perhaps one day you won’t be. In the meantime, however, we need to figure
out how to stop your DNA from mutating any more than it already has. I don’t think I have to explain why that has
to be priority one.” Vincent nodded in
agreement.
“Well we still don’t know exactly what the serum we made was designed
to do, or how it affected Vincent’s… condition,”
JT interjected. “I mean, I had no way of
running DNA analysis after Vincent injected himself with it, against my
better judgment I might add…” He gave Vincent a reprimanding look.
“Hey JT, chill man. I haven’t
had any blackouts since I took the serum, and for the hundredth time, I.
feel. fine! Maybe Catherine was
right. Maybe that’s what those fugue-things
were – my DNA starting to mutate. And
just maybe, that’s what Dr. C’s serum was supposed to fix.”
“The serum wasn’t an antidote, Vincent.
It was designed to treat the evident symptoms of the condition, not cure
what ails you… so to speak.”
“Well once we know that Catherine is out of danger we can start running
some tests and see what’s what –“ Evan broke off mid-thought as Vincent dove for
the bushes. “What the -?”
Chapter Five - Prognosis
Tess flung open the doors to the ER.
“She’s out of surgery!” she called in their direction. “Doc’s gonna be here in a minute to let us
know what’s going on.”
“Coming!” Evan called back, and Tess disappeared back inside. He heard Vincent crawling out of the shrubs
and raised an eyebrow at JT for explanation.
“Super hearing,” JT informed him.
“One of the perks.”
“Come on,” Vincent barked as he blew past them on his way to the
doors. “Let’s find out how Catherine’s
doing.”
“Whoa whoa wait a minute big guy!” JT yelled, running to catch up with
him. “What do you think you’re
doing? You gonna just waltz in there
like some normal guy that doesn’t have a death certificate on file? Are you serious?”
“JT, no one has to know my name or who I am. I’ll lurk in a corner away from the rest of
you. With my ‘super hearing’ as you put
it, I don’t have to be standing in front of the doctor to still hear his
report.”
“Yes, but If I know you – and I think I do by now – you’re going to
want to ‘talk shop’ and ask questions, and the temptation to discuss her
condition will gnaw at you until you cave and get involved. And then what? What if he recognizes you?”
“I doubt he will, JT,” Vincent answered, stopping just before the
automatic doors would sense his presence and open. “I was only a resident and it wasn’t here, it
was at St. Benjamin’s. So unless he
worked the ER there 10 years ago, he wouldn’t have a clue as to who I am. Look, I promise I’ll be careful. And if by some freak thing I do happen to
know him I promise I’ll keep my
distance.” He pulled the brim of his cap
down a little lower over his eyes. “Now
let’s get in there before we miss the doctor altogether and all this arguing
becomes a moot point.” Vincent went in
first, looked around and saw Tess and Heather just getting up to greet the
doctor. He turned and walked in the
opposite direction, finding a seat in a quiet corner to position himself so he
could eavesdrop.
Evan and JT strolled in together and walked up just as the surgeon was
introducing himself. “She came through
the surgery with flying colors,” he reported
“The bullet, as you know, had gone clean through. She’ll be pretty sore for a while but she
should make a full recovery. Fortunately
she was wearing her seatbelt and didn’t sustain any life-threatening internal
injuries, just some cuts and bruises, and a broken ankle. The biggest thing we have to watch her for is
a concussion.”
“What about the other woman who was brought in from the accident?” Tess
thought to ask. “Is she still alive?”
“Sadly there was nothing we could do for her. She was DOA.”
“Aww gee isn’t that just too
bad,” Tess muttered under her breath.
“I’m sorry,” the surgeon said, getting a little edge to his voice. “I don’t know what your issues with the other
woman were, but your comment is pretty inappropriate considering your friend
apparently killed her.”
Tess whipped out her badge.
“That other woman was a psycho-matchmaker who tried to kill my partner, if you must know. She’d already killed one man, and after Detective Chandler interrogated her, she
knew she was going down for it.
Apparently she figured she had nothing to lose, so why not kill the cop
that spoiled it all for her? Now,
forgive me, but inappropriate or not, I’m glad she can’t do any more damage.”
“My apologies for misreading the situation. But our professional objectives are not
always compatible, as I’m sure you know.
My goal is to preserve life whenever possible. I can’t allow moral judgments to impair my
ability to do my job. Those are best
left for the legal system. In your line
of work, you see the worst of humanity on a daily basis. I imagine it gets frustrating when you feel
justice isn’t served.”
“It sure does. So you’ll please
forgive me if I don’t get all torn up about the way this one turned out.”
“Understood, detective. At any
rate, Ms. Chandler is going to be in ICU at least until she regains
consciousness and we see how she’s doing.
You may go check in on her one at a time for no more than 5 minutes
before you leave. She’s still sedated
from the surgery so she won’t respond to you, just so you know. You can call
about her status in the morning to see if she can have visitors. She’s in ICU 104. The nurses can direct you.”
“Thanks so much, doctor,” Evan said, extending his hand.
“Certainly,” the surgeon replied as he clasped the offered hand in a
firm shake. “Hopefully your friend will
be out of here in a couple of days. Now
if you’ll excuse me I have another patient to tend.” As he walked away, JT turned to make eye
contact with Vincent, only to find his friend was nowhere to be seen. Now where had he ducked off to…? He trailed after Tess, Heather, and Evan as
they went to the nurses’ station and got directions to ICU. All the way there, JT kept looking around
nervously for some sign of Vincent. He
knew it was too much to hope for, that Vincent had gone home. He was lurking around here somewhere, JT was
sure of it.
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“Oh Cat,” Heather whined with a sniffle as she held her sister’s hand. “You have
to pull through this. I need you big
sis. Who else can I sit up all night
with eating ice cream and crying over my train wreck of a love life?” She gave
a teary laugh. “Although just between you
and me, I really really like Evan.” She waved her hand dismissively, even though
Catherine couldn’t see her. “Oh I know
you said he’s a flirt, but who knows? Maybe I can be the one to make him settle
down.” She choked back a sob as she bent
to kiss Catherine’s forehead. You rest,
and I’ll talk to you in the morning ok?
I love you Cat.” She walked out
of the room and Tess gave her a hug before going in.
“Hey partner,” Tess said softly as she walked up to Catherine’s
bed. She gently brushed a stray lock of
hair from her friend’s cheek. “You need
to get better quick and get back on your feet.
What am I gonna do without you? I
mean, you know my luck. Joe will try to
stick me with Wolanski for a partner.
Next thing you know MY name will be on the police blotter for assault. That guy seriously winds me up.” She took Catherine’s hand and gave it a
little squeeze. “I need you, Cat. You’re the only thing that keeps me sane in
that testosterone jungle.” Tess just
stood and watched Catherine breathe for a couple more minutes, before releasing
her hand and leaving the room.
Evan slipped into ICU 104 and just stood by the door watching Catherine
for a minute. So much had happened in
the last couple hours, it was hard to process it all. Who was this woman that he thought he
knew? This beautiful, vivacious girl
that made him laugh, and was always finding some extra project at work to rope
him into? He smiled remembering some of
the “favors” she’d managed to get him to do for her.
It was a shame that she would never know what she meant to him. He knew that she saw him as a player, but
that was what he’d always wanted her to think.
The truth was, and he was finally ready to admit it to himself, he let
her think that to keep her at arm’s length because he was scared. More
like terrified, he thought. Deep
inside, he knew that she was the one that could make him break his 3 month
rule. But he just wasn’t sure if he was
the marrying type. And Catherine
deserved that. She deserved…
everything. After all she’d been
through, he didn’t want to be just one more failed relationship for her to agonize
over. He wanted to see her happy – truly
happy.
His thoughts turned to Vincent.
Something told him here was someone that could give Cat her “happy ever
after” if they could somehow find a way to at least keep his DNA from mutating
any further than it already had. It was
obvious that Keller was totally smitten with Catherine, and her feelings for
him must be pretty powerful if she was willing to risk not only her
relationships with friends and family, but her career and reputation to protect
this poor tortured man. Joe had made it
crystal clear that he wanted the rogue vigilante hauled in and brought to
justice. If Cat was found harboring a
known fugitive on Joe’s 10 most wanted list, she was going to have bigger
problems to worry about than desk duty.
Evan sighed. Who the hell was he
kidding? They all were going to be in
serious trouble if they got found out.
All the more reason not to bring Tess into it. She’d never forgive them after her last brush
with desk duty. He pushed himself off
the wall he’d leaned against and crossed the room to her bedside. “Ah, sweet Catherine. What a fine mess we’ve all landed ourselves
in, eh? So now I know your deep, dark
secret that you’ve been keeping from us all.
What I need is for you to wake up and tell me why you’re risking everything to help Vincent Keller. And while you’re at it, maybe you can explain
why the hell I’m sticking my neck out too.
You must be rubbing off on me.”
He smiled sadly as he leaned down to brush a kiss on her lips. “Be well, sweetheart. And be happy.
Now that I know why you kept turning me down, I won’t pressure you
anymore.”
When Evan left the room, Tess had already gone. He looked at JT, who was waiting for his 5
minutes with Cat, and said, “I have to take Heather home, and let her dad know
what’s happened.” He pulled out his
wallet and removed a business card.
“Here’s my number – when the dust settles, give me a call ok? We can start discussing our… collaboration.”
JT nodded. “Yeah, I will. And
Marks? Thanks.” He watched as Evan pulled Heather to his side
and escorted her out of ICU. When they
were out of sight he took a deep breath and entered Cat’s room.
There was something so wrong about seeing her lying there like that, he
thought. So still… surrounded by the beeping
and buzzing of machines tending to her broken body. He thought of all the times she had gone to
bat for Vincent, and he felt ashamed of the way he’d treated her. He had come to realize that even though she
may have crossed the lines sometimes, it was only because she had to learn
where they were. He and Vincent had been
living with those lines for 10 years. It
was all new territory for her. And she had adjusted. In the end, her fierce loyalty to Vincent was
more than he expected or ever could have hoped for.
“Hey Cat,” he murmured as he stood next to the bed watching her. “I, uh… I just want to say how sorry I am for
the way I’ve treated you. I guess I’ve
been protecting Vincent for so long, it never occurred to me that there might
be someone in this crazy world that could really
love him in spite of everything he has going on. It wasn’t that I was afraid you were going to
rat him out; I just don’t want to see him get hurt, you know? I realize that must sound silly, he’s a big
boy and all… but he’s lonely. I’ve had
to give up a lot in the social life department, but I still get to have a
life. Vincent has nothing. Or at least… he had nothing until you came into his life.” He paused.
“I guess what I’m trying to say is, thank
you. Thank you for seeing Vincent
for who he is as a man and loving him as
he is. I promise I’ll be less of a jerk
to you when you’re back on your feet, ok?
Just… get better. Vincent needs
you. We all need you.”
JT hesitantly reached out and patted Catherine’s hand before turning
and walking out. He never stopped as he
exited the room; just kept on going until he reached his car. There was no point waiting around for
Vincent. He’d find his own way home when
he was good and ready. And JT was pretty
sure that wouldn’t be any time soon.
Chapter Six – Inner Turmoil
Several minutes after JT left ICU, the door to the supply closet next
to Catherine’s room opened, and Vincent slipped from one room to the next,
cleverly disguised in some scrubs and a lab coat that he had “appropriated”. He shut the door behind him, and silently
willed the staff to stay away. He didn’t
want to have to come up with an on-the-spot story as to who he was and what he
was doing in there, but if it came to that he would. Nothing was going to stand in his way of
being with Catherine.
He pulled a chair up to her bedside and dropped into it. He was exhausted after the emotional
rollercoaster he’d been on all evening.
Reaching out, he lifted her slender hand and placed it in his own,
cradling it gently for fear of hurting her with his unnatural grip. Normally he had control of himself, but being
this emotional, he was afraid he’d be distracted enough to forget his own
strength. He stared at her face, his
thumb tenderly stroking the back of her hand as if willing the contact between
them to wake her. He knew she needed
rest, but he needed to know she was
really going to be ok. And he needed to
tell her –
What? His brow furrowed in
thought. What exactly would he say to
her when she woke up? I’m sorry? Sorry for walking away? Sorry that I’m not… human?
His mind was in such a jumble, he didn’t know how he’d ever sort it all
out. There was only one thing that he
knew for sure – he loved Catherine with every beat of his heart. And apparently it was more than just a fleeting
feeling, because he realized something tonight for the first time; not only did
he love Catherine, but his beast loved her as well. It went far beyond protecting an innocent
with her – his beast was protecting his chosen mate. That was why her touch
could calm him when he couldn’t calm himself.
With her, he felt… safe. Ironic, he thought, how all this time she
thought he was saving her, but in reality, she was saving him. In so many ways, day after day, she gave him
what he needed to carry on - her hope, her faith, her friendship… her
love. She’d never said the words, but he
had seen it in her eyes too many times to not notice. Oh, he had tried to ignore it, afraid to
trust that she wouldn’t one day just get tired of the whole mess. But how many times had she risked her own
life to save his? It upset him at the
time, because all he wanted to do was make sure she was safe. His love for her wouldn’t consider any other
option.
His brow furrowed as a new thought came to him. Was it like that for her, too? Was that why she kept fighting for him,
believing in him, trying to protect him at risk to herself? Because her love
demanded the same commitment from her?
Could it be that she actually loved him enough that living without him
would bring her the same pain that he would endure if she were ripped from his
life? He was afraid to hope.
Craving her touch, he lifted her hand and placed it against his cheek,
as she had done so many times. Every
time she did that something primal inside of him wanted to howl, it touched him
so deeply. Now he just squeezed his eyes
shut, tears seeping from between his lashes, thinking how close he had come to
losing her tonight. And she still wasn’t
out of the woods.
Even without looking at the monitor, Vincent was aware of the change in
Catherine’s heart rate and respiration.
Her head started tossing back and forth on the pillow as if in the
throes of a terrifying nightmare. “No….
Vincent… please….” She let out a little sob and her voice grew hoarse, tight
with emotion. “Please don’t leave me…”
Vincent vaulted out of the chair and leaned over her, stroking her
hair, brushing his lips against her forehead, trying everything he could think
of to soothe her. “Sshh Catherine, it’s ok.
I’m here... I’m here. I’m not going anywhere, I promise.” He was totally humbled. Evan had been right apparently. Because Catherine’s subconscious was expressing
what her broken heart wouldn’t let her say to him at the reception. She had
wanted him to stay, but she thought he didn’t want to be with her! Just when he
thought he couldn’t possibly love her or want to protect her any more than he
did, he discovered there was no limit to the feelings his precious Catherine
could stir in him. He nuzzled her cheek
with his, softly kissed it, and then whispered in her ear, “Come back to me
Catherine. I can’t do this by myself any
more. I need you here with me.” He swallowed hard against the lump in his
throat.
Once more he lifted her hand and brought it to his lips to place a
tender kiss in her palm. As he did, he
felt her fingers curl slightly and brush his jawline. His eyes darted to her face, and he watched
her lashes flutter as if she was trying to wake from her sleep. He leaned down again and stroked her
face. “That’s it,” he encouraged
her. “You’re almost back. You’re strong – you can do it. Fight
for it.” Vincent knew he was being
selfish, but he had to know she was going to be alright. He felt like his whole world was coming apart
at the thought of possibly losing her.
“Vincent,” she whispered, her eyes still closed. He thought he’d never heard a sweeter sound
in all his life. He gently rubbed his
thumb over her lips.
“Hey beautiful,” he whispered back.
His breath caught when she ever so softly kissed the pad of his thumb. He wondered what it would be like to have her
warm lips pressed to his own. Slowly her
lashes lifted until she could gaze the short distance into his eyes.
“Hey,” she answered dreamily, her lips lifting in a barely perceptible
smile. “You’re… here.” Vincent noticed her struggling to swallow
and brought the small glass of water from her bedside table to her lips for her
to sip. She closed her eyes again and
sighed. “Thanks.” She could hear him put the cup back, then
felt him tenderly brush her hair from her face.
She made the effort to open her eyes again. “Vincent… we need… to talk,”
she managed to say.
“Shh I know,” he replied.
“You’ve had a rough night, so how about I talk and you listen?” Catherine nodded and closed her eyes
again. She would let him have his say,
but then she was going to finish the conversation. There were things he had to know…
“Catherine, I want – no, I need
to apologize to you for earlier…”
Vincent sank down into the chair by her bed, his elbows on his knees,
hands clasped together as he stared at the floor. “I told you once before, I don’t know how to
do this. This whole… situation.” He
glanced up briefly, but found it hard to maintain eye contact with all the
emotions running rampant inside him and looked away again. “It’s been… a really long time since I’ve had any kind of relationship with, you
know, a woman…” He could feel his cheeks
burning hot with embarrassment. “If things with me were… normal… this would be
so much different. Easier. But I am what I am, y’know? And you…” Vincent blew out a deep breath. Summoning all his courage, he raised his
eyes and his gaze collided with hers. “You are not a normal woman.” He could see the uncertainty in her eyes at
his words and rushed on to explain, “What I mean to say is… you are the most amazing woman I’ve ever known.” His looked back to his hands, where he was
rubbing his thumbs together nervously. “You’re
like… ten times better than any fantasy I ever had of the perfect woman. And I’m like, this hideous monster, and you
deserve so much better than that. And as
if that wasn’t enough, now I find out that what I am… is likely going to get
worse. If I thought I was being selfish
before to think we could ever… have some sort of relationship… now it would be
just insane of me to want you to have to go through whatever it is that I’m
going to turn into. For all we know, it
may not stop until there’s nothing left of me.” He reached out and took her
hand and lifted it to rub his cheek against the back of it. “But I want you to know, the one thing that I
never meant to make you feel is that
I was rejecting you. I walked away tonight because I finally
realized I can’t ask you to throw your life away on me. You don’t need to go into a relationship
knowing that one day I’m going to break your heart, no matter how much I…” Vincent swallowed hard against the emotion
choking him, “no matter how much I care about you.”
Catherine could feel the wetness of his tears on the back of her hand
where it still rested against his cheek.
What strength and courage it must have taken for him to make such an
emotional sacrifice for her! He hadn’t
said the words, but she understood what he hadn’t spoken. Now it was her turn to make amends. “Vincent,” she whispered, knowing full well
he could hear her. When he looked up at
her, she closed her eyes as if she was exhausted. “Come closer,” she breathed. Vincent honored her wish and rose from his
chair to lean over her. She slowly removed
her hand from his and placed her palm on his cheek. Slipping her fingers into his hair she curled
her fingers slightly around the back of his head and using gentle pressure she
urged him to bring his face closer to hers.
“Help me sit up,” she asked when they were almost nose to nose.
“Catherine, I don’t think that’s a good idea,” he reasoned. “You should lie still.”
“I’ll rest afterward. It’s only
for a moment, I promise. Please.
Just slide your arm under me if you would…” As Vincent did so, it gave her all the
leverage and element of surprise she needed to close the distance between them
and fuse her lips to his.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Introductions
This blog is an archive specifically for my fanfiction writings around the CW's new Beauty and the Beast series (2012). If anyone who sees this ever read Roswell fanfiction, I wrote a 4 book series under the pen name "sheeperz" entitled Double Jeopardy that was posted to a couple fanfic boards, and got picked up by a couple other websites that featured their favorite Roswell fics. I also was nominated for a few awards on the biggest Roswell fanfic site going (and it really is quite extensive), which was (for me) quite an honor.
After 10 long (dry) years of not writing due to lack of time... and inspiration... my muse has finally come home! And strangely, he looks a lot like Jay Ryan.... hmmm. Very interesting. :) You won't hear me complain about having him whisper in my ear! Even when he's the beast, it's just plain impossible to make that man ugly. What can I say?
I currently am finishing the third chapter of my first BATB fic, which begins toward the end of the mid-season cliffhanger episode, when Catherine is speeding away from the wedding reception in Heather's car. Heather's poor, poor car... curse that Sabrina Meyer, anyway. The story starts there, explores some inner struggles and behind the scenes stuff before launching forward into uncharted waters as Evan approaches Vincent cradling an unconscious Catherine in his arms. And... that's all I'm gonna say. Well... except that I plan to use the episode 10 trailer snippets in some fashion as well. :)
If anyone is into TheVampire Diaries, I also have a good start on a story that features Damon, entitled, "Damon's Salvation." I kind of set it aside, as I didn't know where to post it at the time. Let me know if it's something you'd like to read and I'll put it in the hopper to finish after this one. By the way, the current working title for my BATB fic is "Save You, Save Me." We'll see if it changes. ;-)
So keep an eye on this page for more information about when and where I will be posting this story online (I'd love to have your feedback on the boards) and of course it will always be archived here for future reading.
Feel free to add me on google+ as well! I'd love to engage in discussion about the show, the writing, editing, and what you like/don't like about *my* writing (as long as it's kept respectful).
PS - I'm also on Facebook (http://www.facebook.com/brennalass) and Twitter (@BrennaOReillyNY).
After 10 long (dry) years of not writing due to lack of time... and inspiration... my muse has finally come home! And strangely, he looks a lot like Jay Ryan.... hmmm. Very interesting. :) You won't hear me complain about having him whisper in my ear! Even when he's the beast, it's just plain impossible to make that man ugly. What can I say?
I currently am finishing the third chapter of my first BATB fic, which begins toward the end of the mid-season cliffhanger episode, when Catherine is speeding away from the wedding reception in Heather's car. Heather's poor, poor car... curse that Sabrina Meyer, anyway. The story starts there, explores some inner struggles and behind the scenes stuff before launching forward into uncharted waters as Evan approaches Vincent cradling an unconscious Catherine in his arms. And... that's all I'm gonna say. Well... except that I plan to use the episode 10 trailer snippets in some fashion as well. :)
If anyone is into TheVampire Diaries, I also have a good start on a story that features Damon, entitled, "Damon's Salvation." I kind of set it aside, as I didn't know where to post it at the time. Let me know if it's something you'd like to read and I'll put it in the hopper to finish after this one. By the way, the current working title for my BATB fic is "Save You, Save Me." We'll see if it changes. ;-)
So keep an eye on this page for more information about when and where I will be posting this story online (I'd love to have your feedback on the boards) and of course it will always be archived here for future reading.
Feel free to add me on google+ as well! I'd love to engage in discussion about the show, the writing, editing, and what you like/don't like about *my* writing (as long as it's kept respectful).
PS - I'm also on Facebook (http://www.facebook.com/brennalass) and Twitter (@BrennaOReillyNY).
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